Sad Day

Today was a hard day. Dave lefted for 7 mths, the only thing that keeps me together is that I got the better half of this deal. I feel so bad for Dave and can't image how hard it would be to leave my family for 7 months. I am so proud of him!!! And I know that Alice is too. I am so happy that I get to get away for this first month to be with family. And now that his gone I got more drive to lose this weight and be HOT for my soldier.

Tomorrow is weight in day and like I said yesturday I am scare. I feel no different from last week and today I am just feeling Blah. I know it is because Dave left BUT I feel like a big blah. Hopefully tomorrow I will go down that is all I want to go be down. It would lift my spirits So much.

This week comming up with my parents being here I got no clue if that will help me or ruin me. I think Help I hope for help because No fast food at all!! Except for my birthday dinner which will be saturday we are going to swiss chalet, which isnt that bad right?? Chicken is good. But leaving here and going back home with them is going to be the killer because of ALL the fast food back home that I LOVE and cant get here. But I just got to keep my head straight on.

Enough thinking for tonight.